I have problems

I'm thinking of quitting school. When I go to Japan this Winter, maybe I won't come back (though I'm sure my parents will kill me).
I wish I could change for the better. I want to be a better person, I wish I could care about my grades and work hard in my classes. I wish I wasn't so lazy. I wish I wasn't so depressed, wish that I didn't have these thoughts of suicide. I wish I were better at talking with people. I wish I didn't act so stupid around girls. I wish I weren't so emotional over the dumbest things. I wish I didn't act so weird...or say things that hurt or offend people. I wish I got along with my father. I wish I knew how to write better.

Man I have problems....
Kelly Center here I come!

.....Maybe I shouldn't have posted this in a public blog...